SO! Here I am again. I know it's been a while.
So now we're back in Texas. We packed up the car and the van in Ruthton and hit the road with the two cars. Me, my mom, Sasha, and Sara rode in the Nissan and my dad and grandparents went in the van. We left November 2nd, Monday morning. We me, Sasha, my mom and sister got here Wednesday, November 4th and stayed with my aunt and uncle the first night. Dad and grandparents stopped in Oklahoma and came the next day.
Now, we are all here! :) We got back just in time for the Bill Johnson Conference at Church of the Hills, which was AMAZING. SUCH a good week. It was so good to see everyone again... Especially good to see Kayla, Caroline, Isaiah, Austin... the list goes on. But I missed those guys like crazy. You have no idea... I love every one of them.
I still wish I could see them more often, but I live forever away right now...
At the moment, we are living at the Reed's. They have such a beautiful place out here in Manchaca. You couldn't find me if you wanted to. GORGEOUS 2 story house, out in the middle of the woods. :) I go make campfires down by the river every once in a while and just talk to myself... and to God... And make wishes. Tell Him what's in my heart. That's kind of my secret place. It's so beautiful and... peaceful.
Last Monday, we went to Mozarts to see Kayla do her first gig. :) It was so crazy awesome. She is such an amazing, beautiful, and talented girl. I love her with all of my heart.
She started with City Lights (One of my FAVORITE songs of hers! :) She has a beautiful voice and is such an amazing song writer.) then sang How He Loves, Andy's Song, and went on with her setlist... She did such a great job. :) We only stayed for half of it but I was really glad I got to go. She has such an amazing life ahead of her.
I did a lot of thinking that night... Haven't really stopped thinking since. Sometimes I think I might think too much.
I did vigure out that Mozarts is one of my new favorite places on the planet! Such a cool place to hang out and just relax, drink good coffee, look at the lake. :) It's an awesome place.
I have been feeling really, really lonely lately... It could be that, well, I'm alone most of the time. Yeah, I'm guessing that might have something to do with it. Most of the time, I will just sit up in my room, reading, doing school, watching a tv show or a movie, playing guitar or recording a song in my closet. Every once in a while, I'll go take a walk in the woods or go to my spot down by the river. I'm just tired of being alone... I want someone. Just to be with. And talk to. And love. And pour my heart out to. I want... Someone to call princess. There's really only one person. I told her once that I honestly believe that I would die without her. And I did believe that. And I think that when she left, a part of me did die... I've changed so much since then. And I honestly don't know if that part of me will ever be revived again. I can't look at anyone the same way. For now I'm just me... And only me. Not Britain and So and So. There's no WE. There's no US. It's just... Britain. And if things keep going this way, it may just be that way for a very long time. I'm sick of it. But I might as well just get used to it. I've tried to get her back. And I treat her like a princess... Because I believe she is one. But it's never enough. I'm done. For now. I just might go back to my original plan and live alone, being the magician I always dreamed of becoming.
I heard a line in a song the other day that I thought was really interesting... It went something like, "Can we fix what was made to be broken? 'Cause I feel like I can barely fix what's made to be." Anyways... Sounds like how I feel. I thought that was a really interesting line.
SOOOOOOOOO! Now. Here I am. Laying on the floor in my bedroom, thinking, wondering, dreaming. Being the dreamer that I am. I'm gonna go read Red in a little while before I go to bed. Tomorrow we have to move furniture and stuff, get the Reeds stuff moved out, and our stuff moved in.
Ben and Nate might be staying over here tomorrow night. That'd be fun. :) I like having them around. And their sister Sierra and I have actually got to know eachother pretty well. :) She is a very cool girl. And she is coming to the Owl City concert with us December 16th, which I am REALLY excited about!!! =D I like hanging out with them and their family. love those guys. Their little sister, Arianna, is staying here tonight.
OH! Another cool thing really quick! Last Sunday,I got to speak at In The City For The City! They had set up a stage in the parking lot across form the Bob Bullock Museum and had different worship teams playing, and people giving words and all kinds of crazy cool stuff. Pam Brimberry had called me a few nights before and asked if I wanted to speak. So I said... SURE! Haha A little after 7pm Sunday evening, I got up on stage, gave a quick word and testimony about my eyes being healed at camp, and prayed over the whole group of people and the city of Austin! It was pretty flippin' sweet! :)
Had a great night. Got to hang out with Miles and Kayla at Wendy's and... Anyways. It was just great.
So that's my life. I'm gonna go read or something. Thanks for reading.
Love you guys
-Brit
