Friday Saturday and Sunday

Well it's been one crazy week. :) Good and bad. Awesome and ugly. Honestly, it was completely insane. Really horrible, but somehow really good. Sometimes life is just so hard to understand. It's so crazy, so unpredictable, so awful, so wonderful, so beautiful, so perfect... What is life? Hmm... It can be anything you want it to be depending on how you live it. It is a gift. And... Well... Mine is pretty crazy right now. But how couldn't I love it? :) It's pretty darn amazing. What makes it amazing, you ask? Well... That's not a hard question to answer. The friends around me, the people I love, the ones who keep me smiling, they make my life amazing. :)
Chelsie, Shannon, Briggs, Nichole, Kayla, Christina, Austin, Sara... there are too many to name. :) The people around me make my life amazing. And I love every one of them so very much. Mom, Dad, Sara, I love those guys so much. They have been going through some hard stuff lately and I know it, but we are still surviving. And we just keep moving on. I love you guys so much. :)

Well. I'll give you a quick update and then post another blog about my day.

FRIDAY:
Went to work, to my surprise Jake Holcomb was waiting outside when I came to unlock. Turns out HE is the one who is taking my job. Which was actually really cool cause I got to train him and everything. :) That went well. He cleaned out one of the machines, took it apart and put it back together by himself. He did awesome. Today was his first day on his own, and he texted me asking me how to do stuff. But I think he is doing great.
After work, I went to lunch next door at Guadalajara with Jay and my dad. Jay paid me extra this last week and said they would miss me around there while I am gone. That was amazing. I have the best boss ever. Before I left, he handed me an envelope with $200 in cash and said to enjoy my trip. God, I love that guy. He is so awesome.
When I was done with lunch, I went back to Berry Cool to see Caroline because she was working. I ended up sticking around and helping her out since the place was really crowded. A little after 4, Zach came by and picked me up to take me rock climbing at Lifetime with him and Cameron. that was a BLAST! I have some pictures and videos of that I need to upload when I get the chance. Later that night, went to a football game at Rouse to see Chelsie. Got to meet Ryan finally. Very cool. He rocks. :) For some reason, I just like him. I'm not too sure why. Haha I've known him for a few days and he already feels like a brother. Haha After that, I went home and slept...


SATURDAY:
The big day! The day I had been waiting for! It was the dance! Well... Chelsie decided not to go. She doesn't like school dances. Now I know why. I completely agree with her about dances. Haha It was CRAZY!!! It would have been great, but it was crowded, very loud, and there was no way we would have been able to spend much time together if we wanted to.
So because she didn't want to go to the dance, she had planned a party at her house. Well, I was going to go, but because of previous plans and for a few different reasons, my parents made me go to the dance and wouldn't allow me to go to the party. So now I am stuck going to the dance alone and then going home with Briggs. (That part I was still looking forward to. the rest I was pretty bummed about.)
So anyways, Chelsie heard I couldn't come to the party so she decided that she would come to the dance for a while and then go to the party around 9:30. I love her so much. :) Even though she didn't want to come, she ended up going anyway so we could see eachother. :) I found out, and I was quite happy. We had been gone all day so I stopped by the church, dressed myself up, made myself smell good, and walked out of the building with a great big smile on my face. I rode there with Briggs, Cory and Matt.
They dropped me and Briggs off at the dance a little after 8 which gave us about an hour-an hour and a half. So everything was good. Briggs sprayed some of my cologne stuff in the car to make himself smell good. He sprayed a ton and we ended up having to roll down the windows and let the car air out. It was pretty hilarious. lol
So we go in the dance, I hug Chelsie, and we spend the night running around, laughing at people and watching them dance. I've never done anything but slow dance in my life. The only song I almost attempted to dance to was Single Ladies. But I won't go there. Haha Chelsie walked around and I followed. I knew that she didn't want to dance so I didn't bother her about it. Before too long, I looked at the clock on the wall and realized that it was 9:30 and Chelsie had to leave.
I knew she didn't want to come in the first place so I really wanted to make the night worth it to her.
I had imagined us not wanting to dance, walking outside hand and hand, and ending the night laying in the grass and looking at the stars together. Well. It wasn't really like that. At all.
She got a text that said she had to go.
"I'm not leaving here without actually getting to spend some time with you," I said. I took her hand and we walked together, hand in hand through the crowd of people. As soon as we stepped out the front door, we were stopped. This was NOT a part of my plan. There were some school people standing outside the front door making sure that none of the kids left the dance. This was definitely NOT supposed to happen. Cory wouldn't be able to pick up me and Briggs until around 11:00pm so I was bout to be stuck at a school dance for an hour and a half and I didn't even get to spend any time alone with the girl that I came there for in the first place. My mind almost exploded! The night was not going the way that I imagined it. I honestly felt like a horrible boyfriend because she came to the dance because of me and we didn't even get to spend much time together. Well... Her grandma was waiting outside, she said she really had to go, so I stood with her by the front door, held her in my arms for the longest time, and then let her just slip away. I watched her walk out the front door and to her car. I walked back into the dance... I could barely hold back the urge to run outside, past the ladies and security guards at the front door and... well... It didn't happen. I beat myself up for it the rest of the night. Once I walked back inside, I realized that in just a couple of days I was leaving for Minnesota and that might have been the last time I would get to see her. At that moment, when I realized that, I honestly wanted to die. I don't think I have ever had the desire of getting drunk more than I did that night. They didn't have any alcohol, so I settled for a Dr. Pepper and went to sit at one of the tables with Briggs. well... the night went on. For an hour and a half, we sat and watched them dance, wishing we could be at that party.
After the dance, we went to Briggs' house, ate beef jerky, drank mountain dew and watched an episode of the Fringe and then Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers. I fell asleep about 30 minutes into it... And I had a dream about Chelsie. We were under a tree, playing on a tire swing by the church.


SUNDAY:
Well, I woke up feeling like the worlds worst boyfriend for having her come to the dance. Sadly, I couldn't text her because my phone had died while I was at the dance the night before and I didn't bring my charger with me. (I'm a genius.:P) I went to bed thinking about her, I had a dream about her, and I woke up thinking about her. She's always on my mind anyway, but I felt terrible. Well, I got out a pen and paper from my notebook and wrote her a two page long note.
We went to church, I still felt horrible. Now remembering that this would be my last Sunday at church since we would be leaving on Tuesday. Oh, my crazy life. I sat between David Harris and Nichole Holcomb. Love both of them. Those two rock. After church, I talked to friends and then went to find Sara Bane. She had already left but she accidently left her purse at the church so knowing that she would see Chelsie the next day at school and I wouldn't, I dropped the note into her purse along with the pack of sour skittles (Chelsie loves sour skittles) into the bag for her to give to Chelsie at School. I had walked to the corner store before church had started to buy her the skittles. I also picked up a green lighter and a pack of wrigleys gum. The lighter for a magic trick that involves fire, the pack of gum simply because I ran out. I always buy Wrigleys Spearmint for some reason. Loyalty I guess. lol
Went to lunch at North and Souch China chinese buffet after church and took Briggs with us. We dropped him off at home after. It was quite delicious.
After going home, charging my phone and taking a nap, we all went to Showdown, the Sunday night service that happens every other week at Church of the Hills. I was hoping to see Chelsie there. I wanted to REALLY get to say goodbye to her. I was still feeling pretty bad about everything.
But the night went good, I said goodbye to friends and went home and straight to bed.
I ended up texting Chelsie at church and it made me feel much better. :) She makes me smile.




So anyways. I right now, it is about 1:23am and I am leaving for Minnesota in the morning so I'll write back soon and tell you exactly how I got HERE. And if I got to see Chelsie before I left or not. Write back soon. :) Probably from Minnesota the next time.
Love you guys! :)
-Brit