February 14th, 2010 2:00AM

Here I am. Deep in thought. It's been a long, slow day and I'm still feeling the same way I did when I got out of bed this morning and wrote what I did.
We have talked today and had hilarious conversations. Every text I get from her is greeted with a smile. For the two weeks after she stayed here, we talked on the phone nearly every other night 30 minutes to an hour every time. It has been almost a month since she was here and I have only seen her a few times since then. We haven't talked on the phone (other than text) since before musical. I would relive that week again just to be there. Where we were. Just to feel her slide her hand into mine under the table as we ate at Texas Land & Cattle, and laughed after the waitor mistook us for husband and wife. X) "Maybe someday," She said as she glanced my way. I do wish she would call as often as she used to. I really love hearing her voice.
Alright, alright, I know I'm obsessing. I'll try to move on. For your sake, if not mine. My thoughts get drawn to her so often. Everything reminds me of her...

On to a different subject! You might be wondering why I am up this late, writing about these things. Well. I'll tell you. Today was Kate's 4th Birthday party. :) Yepp. Little Kate is 4 years old now. I went over to Britany and Steve's house for the party, went straight to Kate, said hi and gave her a big birthday hug. Then headed into the kitchen to get some sweet tea and a plate of nice warm pizza before going to sit on the couch and dive into the Ted Dekker book I am reading at the moment. Infidel. Amazing series so far. I am loving all of Ted's writings. I am 45 pages away from the ending and I planned on finishing it by tonight. I might read a little before I hit the hay tonight. :)
After the party and helping Kate open and set up some of her new toys, we went over to my grandparents house and hung out with them for a while. THAT was a total blast! X) I love my grandparents so much. They are amazing. I really need to start spending more time with them. I love them both dearly.
After leaving their house and stopping by Walmart with mom and Sara, we headed home. Well. When we got home, I went up to my room and got on Facebook. A little while later I hear Sara freaking out about something. Well. Turns out my dog decided to be stupid and chase a skunk! My sister let Sasha in the house and now, obviously, my entire house smells like skunk. So mom and I went to Walmart again to buy some stuff that might get the smell out. We got back a little less than an hour ago. This should all explain why I am still awake, writing my blog, while laying on my bedroom floor in a small circle of candles.
Mmmmmmmmmmm... I really love candlelight. :) it is beautiful. I am so fascinated by fire. All the little things. They seem to fascinate me the most.

I'm not really too sure why I'm writing. I guess just to document the moment. :) So here I am, February 14th, 2010, 2:00am. Writing by candlelight. Thinking about something. About someone. Dreaming like the dreamer that I am.
Well I better get to bed. I love you all. Goodnight world. Sleep peacefully.
-Brit